ððŪððē ððžð ðēððēðŋ ðēð ð―ðēðŋðķðēðŧð°ðēðą ððžððŪðđ ðŪðŧðą ððððēðŋ ððĻðĨðĄðĒðĻð§? You start the year with a bang and then somewhere down the road things crash and burn and you wonder what the heck happened??
Somebody please tell me I’m not alone lol ð
ð ðððŪðŋððēðą ððĩðē ðŊðēðīðķðŧðŧðķðŧðī ðžðģ ððĩðķð ððēðŪðŋ ðģðēðēðđðķðŧðī ðđðķðļðē ð ððŪð ðžðŧ ððžð― ðžðģ ððĩðē ðģðŋðēðŪðļðķðŧ ððžðŋðđðą ð ðð―
ðđI had just passed the 1 year mark in my business with Le-Vel, absolutely loving being able to help people achieve their health goals & see them get their mojo back ðĪĐ myself included!
ðđI was invited to go on my FIRST ever leadership retreat in Granbury, Texas and got to spend time with, learn from and build friendships with some of the top leaders in our company. An absolutely unreal experience!
ðđI also completed my 2nd ever Crossfit competition and was achieving my own health goals & actually had muscle definition!! LOL. I actually felt like I looked good and felt my very best! (for someone who’s struggled with image and body confidence this was a MAJOR milestone for me).
ðđ For the first time in my entrepreneurship career I felt like a real business leader! I was given leadership responsibilities within our multimillion dollar organization training 300+ team members, I was building and leading a team of my own, all while running a beauty studio from home AND being a fulltime single mom while navigating toddler homeschooling during lockdowns.
ðđlater in the year I then went on my second (first earned!) leadership retreat to Destin, Florida with 28 of the top leaders in our organization and it was epic to say the least. ð
Wait....This all sounds awesome!? ....what happened!?
- - -
Well after some heartbreak and a series of unexpected unfortunate events...ð ðð§ðĪð ð ððĪðŽðĢ.
I burnt out to the point where I felt absolutely paralyzed and could not move forward with even the littlest tasks.
My anxiety was the worst I had ever experienced and it took all my strength and focus just to keep myself from sinking into depression.
I had to step away from everything I was holding together because it was the only way I knew how to cope.
As the days and weeks went on I felt farther and farther away from the momentum I had spent over a year building.
I was devastated.
I lost my motivation. I lost my drive. And the cycle of anxiety and paralysis continued.
So here I was, feeling defeated, sluggish, frumpy, frustrated with myself and completely lost of how to get my groove back...
Last week I logged on to a mandatory leadership meeting and despite how I felt (like ðĐ!) I showed up anyways.
I sat there listening to other leaders share recaps of the year and I realized I wasn’t alone. I discovered that I wasn’t the only one who’s had ups and downs this year and things that have knocked them right over...
Yet here we all were, still going!
Still showing up, still encouraging one another and not letting circumstances, challenges or hard situations knock us off course from achieving our goals.
I am so ridiculously grateful for the friendships I have made here but even more grateful for the way these women build eachother up. This level of love, grace, leadership and empowerment of eachother is unlike anything I have ever experienced before. And I wholeheartedly believe that this team was brought to me for a reason.
I was reminded also that we always have a choice; to get back in the ring and fight for our goals ðð― and that in most cases by taking the focus off ourselves and shifting it to helping and putting others first, we can truly make a difference around us and create a ripple effect that goes far beyond ourselves.
ð§ðĩðķð ððŪð ððĩðē ðšðēðððŪðīðē ð ðŧðēðēðąðēðą ððž ðĩðēðŪðŋ.
It wasn’t too late for me. ðð― Hallelujah!
My momentum may have taken a turn, but it can (and will!) be rebuilt, and this time, stronger.
I have learned how to better manage my anxiety, my schedule and my expectations of myself aswell as how to avoid burning out next time life decides its going to test me. ð because I know it will!
I’ve also learnt that unplugging and throwing in the towel are not the same thing and that rest is necessary for us to be able to maintain balance.
(as you can see Aidan already does a better job at resting than me ð I’m sure I can learn a lot from him!)
So while there is some work to do, some goals to reset, some inches to lose and habits to work on....I’m running into this next year harder than ever.
My dreams deserve it, my kiddo deserves it and my team, both present and future members deserve it.
ðĨðēðšðķðŧðąðēðŋ; ððžð ðŪðŋðē ððžðŋððĩ ðīðžðķðŧðī ðŪðģððēðŋ ððžððŋ ðīðžðŪðđð. ð
And it is never too late to start going after them!
So cheers to 2020! ðĨð
- A year of hard and at times brutal, yet crucial life lessons that have shaped the woman, mother and friend I am and will continue to be going forward.













LOVED reading this! Can’t wait for more ð
ReplyDeleteOh my goodness I loved this so much! I loved reading it and can’t wait for more!! I love you sister and know you have GOT this!
ReplyDeleteKeep it up champ you are in the league of super heroes ðĶļ♀️ love Abe big bro for life
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